11.2.06

i bought an orchid today in hannaford. in reading up on how to take care of it, i already feel in over my head. poor little guy.

emily came over for dinner tonight. i made red sauce from scratch with pine nuts and clams as the key ingredients. good plan, overall. time with emily is a comfort by now. we like to talk about the same things in the same ways, making lots of wide eyes and exaggerated faces, conversations fraught with exclamations and laughter.

for posterity: i have entered the world of dating. dating like is always talked about, but never done (except, apparently, now, in this world). so far, i prefer an inescapable, unequivocal fall into a maelstrom. choiceless, exciting, terrifying situations: once upon a time, those were my forte. don't know what happened to that. lyme, maybe.

regardless, this new territory deserves exploration. it's strange to see his name on signs all over town.

i'm looking forward to the end of the election. might get to know matt. will hopefully get kevin back in one piece from the connecticut frontlines. hoping i don't lose him to dc.

at any given point some part of my brain is chipping away at the question of what to do next. it's like an old computer, chugging inexorably forward through a problem. i'm hoping to have an answer spit out in eight months or so.

could happen.