1.17.06

everything seems weighty these days. it also, strangely, seems empty. it's waiting for things.

i went to new york with jon to visit karina and the lyme disease clinic that originally diagnosed him. it was different and good to hear karina talk to her dog (muffin) in a high-pitched cute voice. i liked it. jon and i slept on the hardest bunk beds ever (which he thought were excitingly comfortable and i found nearly unsleepable) and i got to talk to karina around her kitchen table just in time for her to move again in a few weeks. i navigated the subway on my own and had a drink in a new york bar. i might survive this world yet.

i discovered that i don't ever want to live in new york city. it's a relief.

for christmas, jon gave me a link bracelet made out of the most stunning silver i've ever seen. initially, it struck me as not my style and i panicked, thinking he didn't know me. i wore it anyway, immediately setting it up for entrance into the array of very important things. now, it may be my favorite material object. this is saying something. it has the perfect weight. it's from him. at the risk of sounding over the top, no one's ever gotten me anything like that before. it is nice.

i have no idea what's going to happen with anything. in the meantime, i'm drinking tea, having a small cold, making necklaces, and watching far, far too much sex and the city. it nearly does a body good.

i'd like this coming semester to be full of pleasant surprises. everyone take note.