12.07.05

december. suddenly.

the previously mentioned new boots have indeed changed my life. they fit my foot like a glove, feel cozy and secure, and make me walk with just a little strut (not too much). they're already starting to break in. there could be no better christmas present than shoes except a piece of clothing of someone i love.

besides boots, there are other things:

lunch with susan and dan at seadogs, our table in the corner, our conversation occasionally punctuated by overzealous construction workers cutting metal pipe in the opposite corner. out the window was the river, the androscoggin, raging down past the dam, looking cold. perspective dictated that we were in fact floating in the middle of the river. the water was full of thick, dark coils of water, moving like stirred pudding that's almost done. strong. across the way was the grey house and imposing fixed income apartment building (where james and i decided to turn around on our long, cold walk my freshman year) that i used to run by earlier this semester.

susan and dan got to know me a little bit.

no running lately, just hibernating as best i can.

jen's birthday and the junior/senior ball. luke showing up in purple eyeshadow, alec being hopeful. wine and black dresses appearing out of the blue. i wore my red pumps.

ferd cooked maggie and i dinner the other night. he's still ferd, but thicker, and soon to be an investment banker. he parents his parents and fusses about dirty dishes.

i am tired of all my female friends (barring karina, who is a blessing when it comes to these things) constantly discussing what they're eating, did eat, will eat, and can't eat. also, tired of hearing how they did work out, didn't work out, and are going to work out. it is singularly boring.

i like the feeling of caffeine more than i used to.

i bought a good amount of people presents online. i enjoyed it and hope they like them.

that is the end of the things.

almost done the semester. saturday i'll take complicated, tenuous busses and trains down to connecticut to see jon for one day and two nights. a flash in the midst of finals; a precursor to christmas break. more showering stress, more things to overcome. hopefully there'll be some balance. if not, things will only be like this so long.

situations are changing.